Living Effortfully Part 1

People often talk about doing things effortlessly. In the Zone, in the Zen, whatever it is; in the Zen Zone or in the Xander Zone, perhaps?

I'm now going to do the opposite. I'm going to make a blog post with as much effort as possible. It's going to be Effortful, rather than Effortless. I will not be at Peak Performance; rather, I will be in Valley Performance. I will be out of the Zone. Technically, I will be in another Zone, but it will not be the Default "the Zone". The Default "the Zone" is restricted to Effortless Peak Performance. The rest of the Zones involve varying amounts of effort. I will be in the most effortful of the Zones as I type this; a Zone not only of sight and sound, but too much trying.

I will try so hard to blog. I'm going to give 110%, or at least something greater than 100%, which is mathematically impossible. You will probably read this and think: "Look at him trying so hard. He is really overdoing it. It's a shame because I know he can do it; but unless he learns to relax, it will never happen. He's going to burn himself out. 5 posts in a day? He has to learn how to pace his blogging."

I am trying so hard to write a blog right now that I am getting very frustrated. That's what happens with too much effort and not enough result: I get emotionally stressed. The results you see are not matching all of my expectations and that is really bothering me. I am beginning to feel like a complete failure. I am now going to write a swear word for the very first time on my blog to express how frustrating are my fruitless Efforts.

FUCK!

Now I am going to blame you. STOP... WATCHING... ME!... I... CAN'T... WRITE... WHILE... YOU'RE... WATCHING...

If you do not see this post, it is because I broke my computer before I could press the "publish post" button on Blogger's stupid Post Creator. Stupid Blogger, why did I even start a blog here anyway? If their Post Composer wasn't so stupid and buggy (in a way I can't put my finger on right now but clearly making for a convenient scapegoat), I'd have written the best post ever already.

Ok, I give up. This is never going to work.

I'm going to take your advice and go take a break. But I will return, and I will try again. Oh yes... there will be blog. Until I know better, I am going to make a series of these Living Effortfully posts in future.